TW Depression

The closer that winter comes, the more I feel I am losing my fight with depression.  The medication does not seem to be helping anymore.  As the holiday season gets closer, I remind myself of the reasons that I write this blog. The obvious one is to have a way to let others know about my day. The big one is to force myself into finding things to be happy for. Today, one of those happy things is that Keziah and I had a long talk about some things that I need to do to help with the depression. Follow-through will be hard. Baby steps today that are my happy things include:

  • Paying bills that I had forgotten. I think I'm caught up now, phew.
  • I took some time and found some things to get rid of. One box was ready to go but for some reason is still hanging around. That and two books that I don't want to hang onto. These things still need to get out of the house, but they are out of my room. There was also some random trash and recycling that went away.


  • Another happy thing is that Keziah bought enough apples to make me a pie or crisp for Thanksgiving.  
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Currently reading: Pocketful of Miracles: Prayer, Meditations, and Affirmations to Nurture Your Spirit Every Day of the Year, Joan Borysenko.

Currently listening to: Blue Lily, Lily Blue, by Maggie Stiefvater.

Thank you for being part of my happy things. Stay safe.

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  1. --K.November 22, 2022 at 2:36 AM

    I am sorry you are struggling right now. An adjustment to your meds might make a difference; reach out to your doctor if you feel able to. (I know that doesn't always feel like a baby step.) You matter, and your happiness matters. Sending hugs.

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